4/16/18, Life Lessons
I hope all is well with you, and that you’re having some peaceful, happy days, some fun, and productive times doing something you enjoy.
I was reading the new Joel Osteen book this weekend, “Blessed In The Darkness”. I always love what he writes, it makes me think, and feel hopeful about life. We all have daily challenges, and it’s nice to have ‘tools’ to help us deal with all the things that come up in all of our lives.
It brought to mind an experience I had several years ago. You may have read about it, or not. I was embezzled for a large amount of money, by my most trusted employee at the time, a person who had worked for me for nearly twenty years. (That doesn’t make me special, the FBI said at the time that most embezzlements are committed by the person closest to you, whom you know well, has worked for you the longest or for a very long time, and whom you trust most. And that’s how it was for me). It was an enormous financial and emotional challenge, ENORMOUS, and involved a huge amount of money. I discovered it by accident, which is usually how it happens, some small thing exposes it, and it all unravels after that. And it turned out that the person who embezzled from me had been doing it almost from the day they started working for me (nearly 20 years before), and the embezzler admitted that they had been jealous of everything I had from the moment they started working for me. Jealousy is a VERY dangerous thing!!! I work very hard for what I do have, and always have worked very hard, and I’m not careless with money, no one has the power to sign checks on my account except me. And it wasn’t done in huge shocking amounts that would catch attention, so that I would say “OMG, where did that money go?” It was done in small steady amounts, sometimes several times a day, usually under a thousand dollars,’only’ several hundred dollars at a time, and rarely over a thousand, so that eventually at the end of the month, I had less money in my account than I thought I should, but I couldn’t figure it out and thought that maybe I was spending more than I realized. The full amount if you added it up over nearly 20 years was a staggering figure. Embezzling from me was a full time job, more so than their actual job with me. You feel stupid when it happens, and shocked and betrayed, and hurt and heart broken, and feel you should have noticed it, but it was very, very cleverly and simply done, which is also typical of many embezzlements. The person who did it figured out the 3 areas that I didn’t watch closely, they also lied to me constantly and I believed them. They also figured out the one or two areas that the accounting firm we used to verify things didn’t watch as closely so they didn’t spot it either, and also what the bank didn’t watch closely. Those three factors made it possible to steal literally millions from me over the years. And life events happen which distract you—-I got divorced—-I had a very sick son, who died during that time, and those distractions also provided fertile times for someone to take advantage of me.
Interestingly, there is a statute of limitations on what people embezzle from you. That limit is 3 years, so even once we knew how much more it was, with some very frightening ballpark and accurate figures, the embezzler could only be prosecuted for 3 years of what they stole—-the 12 or 13 or 15 years before that could not be claimed because of the statute of limitations. I got some money back for the last 3 years, but the bulk of what was stolen couldn’t be claimed because of that statute of limitations, which was shocking too. Embezzling is in fact a psychological pathology, and probably a form of compulsion or obsession. I doubt that there was ever a day that some amount wasn’t stolen from me by the embezzler. Many lies were told, each lie tailored to the person they were lying to, the bank, the overseeing accountant, other employees, or me. And we all believed the lies. Looking back, there are signs that could have been red flags, but I’m a trusting person, I’m honest and assume that others are too. The person bought a big house and spent a lot of money on it, landscaping, decorating, etc., and I was told that a relative had left this person money, I believed it and never questioned it, and I was happy for them. It never occurred to me that I was the ‘relative’, and paid for that house. The court awarded me the house and the proceeds from selling it, but once caught, it was mortgaged to the hilt, and I got only a small fraction of what it was worth, and very little for the contents.
There is no question, it was a very, very ugly, frightening, shocking time. It took a team of forensic accountants recommended by the FBI eight months to figure out what I had lost, and it was mind boggling. Some days I would be panicked by losing so much money, other days I was heartbroken by being so badly betrayed by someone I trusted completely. And it took time to get over it emotionally. One of my daughters, in her teens at the time, summed it up for me one night when I was in despair over it, and she said “We’re not starving, we’re not in the street, you’re still working, we’re going to be okay, Mom”, and she was right. It was as simple as that.
Because of the huge financial loss, I lost some things that really mattered to me. In order to try and regain our financial balance—-losing any amount of money hurts, but when you get hit big, it’s a struggle to get things on an even keel again, unless you have vast amounts of money—-in order to try and equalize what I lost, I had to sell a beach house I loved, I had to close my art gallery which I’d had for 6 years, and REALLY loved, as a wonderful 2nd occupation, I represented 21 unknown struggling artists, so they got hurt by the loss too, and we were all very sad to close but I had no other choice, I couldn’t afford to support the gallery anymore. And worst of all, I had run a street outreach program to help the homeless for 11 years, working on the streets and providing supplies they desperately needed. I poured a lot of money into it, and could no longer afford it after the embezzlement, and had to shut down our operations on the street. That hurt the most, it was work I loved for people in dire need. The judge was most upset by that, and added many, many hours of community service to the embezzler’s sentence, to acknowledge that. I was very sad to lose those three things, the homeless outreach program, my art gallery, and the beach house. I just couldn’t afford them after the loss.
It doesn’t help much, but I realized then how common this is. If you own a small (or large) business, you are vulnerable to someone doing something similar to you. A household employee can steal from you. If you have caretakers for elderly parents, those caretakers can steal money from you too, and that happens often, I hear it from friends. It can happen on a large scale or a small one. Before it happened to me, it happened to my agent, with an employee he treated like a son—-he embezzled a huge amount of money from my agent, and bought himself 2 houses, just like what happened to me, and the embezzler claimed he had inherited money. It all unraveled with a $125. withdrawal, and everything was exposed after that. At the same time it happened to me, it happened to art dealers I knew, in similar amounts and shocking circumstances by their most trusted employee. And recently it happened to two friends who own a small jewelry store, again by their most trusted employee of many years. I’m not suggesting that you become suspicious of everyone around you, or who works for you. But these things do happen, to smart careful responsible people, if you have a dishonest employee who knows you well and what your vulnerabilities are. If you’re an honest person, it never occurs to you that a dishonest person is taking advantage of you. I never dreamed that it could happen to me, that someone would do that to me. But it does, and it’s smart to be aware, and very careful (I thought I was).
In my case, the embezzler went to prison, though not for very long. To be honest, I wasn’t angry (I think I was too shocked to be angry), I was deeply hurt by it, practically and emotionally. I wrote a book inspired by it although a different story since it’s fiction, which helped a little, (“Betrayal”). It takes time to get over a shocking event like that. And I never recouped the money that I lost. Maybe one day I will, but probably not. But my daughter’s early assessment was right, we had our house, we weren’t starving, I still had my job, and we’re okay.
I did the only thing I knew how to do to recover from it. I rolled up my sleeves and worked even harder than before—hard to believe since I have worked hard on my books all my life. I worked extra time and over time, and wrote more than ever. The feelings and the hurt fueled me, and I was determined to protect my family and provide for them. And I realize now that blessings came from it. There are hard things that happen in life, but they often come with a blessing you don’t realize until later. The raw emotions and drive and determination made me work even harder on the books, and it showed in the writing. Is it an event I count as a blessing? No, but there have been definite benefits from it. Seeing my work, my publisher moved me up from four books to six a year, and now seven. If it had never happened, I probably wouldn’t be publishing 7 books a year, or even 6. But my fan base grew, my publishers recognized it, and little by little my career has grown ever since. My determination to work harder grew my career. I still miss my gallery, but no longer having it, I began spending more time in France, and am very happy there. That might not have happened, if the embezzlement hadn’t happened. And I will always miss my street work with the homeless, but in fact it was a very dangerous project, and I always worried about someone in my 12 man team getting hurt on the streets. We had some dicey moments, and it was a very high risk project, working hand to hand and face to face with people who were often mentally ill. Anything could have happened, and luckily no one got hurt in 11 years, but I always knew that at some point the risks would be too great, so maybe we stopped at the right time, and maybe by now we couldn’t do it anymore. Maybe we stopped at the right time, without knowing it. And I raise my voice whenever possible for the homeless, which I couldn’t do when I did the street work, since we did it anonymously. There is no question that blessings did come from the embezzlement, over time, and not always visibly at first. But needing to counterbalance the loss drove my career forward in ways I couldn’t have foreseen, and maybe I wouldn’t have done otherwise, and I’m very grateful for that. I love publishing more and writing more, and enjoy it thoroughly.
It was a hard lesson, and probably one of the hardest things that has happened to me. Losing my son was much worse, and getting divorced, but this was one of those shocking, brutal practical lessons you just don’t expect to happen to you. But it can happen to anyone. No one is exempt from jealousy, and the dishonesty of people you just don’t expect, whether it’s getting mugged on the street and having your purse stolen, or your house burglarized and possessions you love taken, or as in this case, someone you trust stealing from you. I was pretty careful, even very careful before, but I was trusting too. The other embezzlements I’ve heard of, of people I know, are incredibly similar to mine, always by a very, very trusted employee, and usually someone who worked for them for a very long time and has greater access than other employees, and the benefit of your trust. One thinks of innocent naive movie stars being ripped off by their shady managers—you just don’t think about it happening to responsible people who run their lives well. But it can happen to all of us in some form.
Reading Joel Osteen’s book reminded me of the blessings that can come from a shocking upsetting event. And as he says, you don’t stop there. You go on, you make the best of it, you use it to grow and become more as a person, which is the real victory after an event like that. The focus is on the money lost in an embezzlement, and the broken trust. But if you look harder you see the good that comes from it eventually too. And I realized, when I thought about it, that publishing 7 books a year now is one of those big blessings that might never have happened otherwise, and that’s a great thing for me, my family and my career. I’m working harder than ever, and my career has grown exponentially since that unhappy event. You can’t stop at the unhappy events in your life, you have to make the best of them, learn from them, and go on to better days…..and the blessings will come in abundance over time. I am very, very grateful for that!!!
much love, Danielle
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I’m so sorry you went through that. It seems like you’ve reached a place of acceptance. So many times we assume what other people’s lives are like, this is proof once again we all face challenges. You’re a great example of keeping your head high and your heart in the right place. Your daughter is
/was a wise young woman.
Have a wonderful week, Danielle!
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Thanks so much!
All Best Wishes,
Joel Osteen? He is one of the biggest con men in the USA. But a lid for every pot. I am sorry that happen to you. It did happen to me although it did not last more than a year but nonetheless it did hurt.
What a wise daughter you raised! With an attitude like that, she will be most successful in life.
Thank you for sharing your experiences…Certainly, you have moved on and moved on successfully…When you operate from a trusting and honest base, you never think such will happen to you…I expect the world to be fair and honest as I try to be fair and am honest…Your expectations are similar…Best!
Thank you for sharing your personal experience. I have always enjoyed reading your personal writing the most. We all grow from sharing the joy and sorrow in our lives as women. And your blog will help many. The book you wrote regarding your pregnancy along with your friends pregnancies was so meaning full to me at the time. Hope you will write more articles in the future. We don’t see enough women’s articles in magazines as we once did. They are all advertising and as you daughter said the basics were important.
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As I started to read this, the first thought that came to mind was what a truly good person you are. I say this, because you never expected something like this
to happen, simply because you could never do this to someone. The person who did this to you is not even worth mentioning. I’m so happy for you that you overcame this terrible injustice and saw the “light” about all the other things you described to us, things that wouldn’t have happened(all the book publishings) or things that could have been dangerous if they continued (the street work). You are a very strong person. Wishing you peace and all good things, always.
I need something to remind me of my blessings.
or i should just let these things be…
May God bless you and your family. I love Joel Osteen too. I met him in NYC at a book signing of his first book. I am so sorry to hear of your misfortune from a trusted employee. By you writing 6 books or more it is a plus for your fan base. You are a very talented writer and I love your books.
I’m so sorry that happened to you. These people who do those things make people like myself look bad. I could never do something like that. This is why people have no trust in others. Or it makes it harder to find a job. It’s just so sad. Wish I could have a job that I was at for twenty or more years. But I guess it’s a lost art. Hope you have a great weekend! Thanks for all you do and the person you are!
I have just read your story – through their actions they have lost all trust and any respect and they will have to live with that fior the rest of their lives. And through their actions they have given you a new found strength and your daughter was right. I have to say I did notice that you were writing more books a year which for me as a fan of yours and have been since reading “The Promise” am very greatful. I guess in a very odd way they did all your fans a favour we get to read more of your books and get taken on journeys into different worlds and get to meet all kinds of people. Danielle I’m glad you have found the strength to move forward and turn this horrible experience into strength. Love, love, your books – from a dedicated fan.
You are a strong woman I admire you a lot..the fact that you listen to a man of God like Olseen…has touched me..the energy you enacted from your predicament has inspired me…love you Danielle
Happened to me to!! A trusted manager and I thought, friend.
“Write on” and keep on keeping on – thanks for your inspiration!
That was a wonderful testimony. We experienced struggles in life. If there’s test there’s testimony. I am a fan of yours. Today March 22, 2020 I spotted your book at Joel Osteen live show Sunday service in his book shelves with all his memorabilia’s and treasures. So I started google why?
I’m on the same situation as you are, divorced but not final. I moved out, living pay check to paycheck, taking care of my mom after my dad passed away and after my own brother disown my own mother who had been supporting him from the past several years since he was born. I was not thinking what’ will be the consequences. Many side tracts coming along our ways with this pending divorce that we signed. 2 days before our final hearing our judge himself was accused of 13 counts of sexual assault so we are not sure after 2 years of in and out of the court, spending thousand dollars of lawyers fee, arguing about the house or …. what’s life ahead of us. Are we starting from scratch again. No matter how I’ve been accused of things that I didn’t do, God took care of my enemy. The scriptures said to Matthew 22:44 Sit in the place of honor at my right hand until I will humble your enemies beneath your feet. How,- my ex husband fired his lawyer. Another How – God has been taking care of my financial situation, just like what your daughter said we are not starving and we have roof above our head. With the corona virus that’s hitting the world, regardless we are rich or poor, white, black or Asian , we can get it if we don’t take extra precautions.
The bottom line, let God take care of our situation, his plans for us is way and beyond, his will is not our will.
Praying for you and your family. You are God gifted talented writer, inspiration, hoping my 2 daughters 19 years old who Is gifted in art and my 21 years old gifted in writing – who is graduating this year in SF state not knowing when the graduation will be, hoping they will be successful as you are and knowing that as we breathe, everything is in the hands of God almighty, the creator of the universe.
It’s a great testimony that you’ve been writing 7 books in a year. That you can call God move your mountains, Hoping that someday God will open another door for you to help those homeless in some other ways. With this virus all over the world, we can do it and we can move mountains that’s been blocking our ways as long we choose faith over fear.
My wish list, Hoping one day 😊 I can get an autograph from you. You are an inspirational writer. Hoping my daughter will get an internship job in writing as well one day, trusting God.
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