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Whatever your religious or non-religious convictions, the holidays hit most of us pretty hard. I know very few people who can thread their way through these loaded days, go on with their golf game, reading the newspaper, or cleaning their oven, without being at least somewhat impacted by these important days. (And if you can get by without being shaken up by them, more power to you!!!). It’s not just about the hype of what we’re supposed to expect, or how great it’s going to be (maybe), or the present you desperately want (and you get a poinsettia instead, or a fruitcake—I HATE fruitcake!! It’s not chocolate. If I’m going to pile on calories, let it be on something chocolate, not dried fruit). Our expectations start building in our childhoods, and even as adults, there’s a little kid in us that wants it to be perfect, for Santa to know just what we want and show up with it, and all the people we love to be nice to us. Sometimes all of that happens, and sometimes it just doesn’t, and when it doesn’t, we get sad. And important holidays seem to magnify everything we feel: Either REALLY happy, or really sad.
I’ve had all kinds of Christmases, both good and bad, starting with lavish ones as a child, in the German traditions of my father (he loved Christmas!!!), but I had no mother to share them with, since my mother left when I was 6, which was a gaping hole in my life then, as a young child. I had happy Christmases at the beginning of my marriage, and sad ones at the end. And a few completely alone when, divorced, I had a young daughter who went to visit her father in France every other year, and I just sat home and cried, alone. I have had fairy tale Christmases, surrounded by my many children when they were young, when everything went the way it was supposed to and most people dream of….and then the shattering Christmas, 3 months after I lost my son, when we all sat paralyzed with grief. To try and lighten the mood, I decided to give an ice skating party for my friends and their kids. It didn’t fill the void, but reminded my family that life goes on, and there is still laughter and love and fun in our lives, surrounding ourselves with good friends. I’ve had romantic Christmases and some really depressing ones, since I’ve been single….the man I loved passionately (and later married) who decided that being in Antarctica was more fun than being with me, so he spent the holiday with penguins, and I wound up alone that year, an all-time low. Even in a good, happy, wholesome life with family and a solid marriage, Christmas isn’t perfect every year, and I’ve spent enough hard ones to be sensitive to the fact that the holidays are really tough for some people, particularly if they’ve encountered disappointment or loss, or are alone. There are a lot of lonely people in the world, and contrary to common belief, having a family isn’t always a guarantee that the holiday will be great. Some of us go home to parents we never got along with in the first place, and all the same problems surface again, or siblings we have nothing in common with, or we have to send children to a divorced spouse, and sometimes we are just so stressed out that we wind up fighting with people we love, in spite of good intentions. Truly, despite my many children, I know how hard holidays can be, and they underline the fact that we’re alone, or what’s not going right in our lives.
There are several ways to view how to handle difficult holidays. Forget them: not always so easy to do, with Jingle Bells playing in every elevator and supermarket, and a Santa with his beard askew on every corner. (And shouting obscenities at street corner Santas, and taking our frustrations out on him is not considered ‘cool’). You can spend the holidays with good friends and people you really like to be with, which is a warm way to spend it. Or remember that it is one day, and not a year long. You can get through one tough day, you’ve done it before. And gratitude for what you do have: even if it’s not perfect, there must be ONE thing you can be grateful for. One particularly awful year many years ago, the only thing I could think of to be grateful for was a new pair of shoes I had bought myself and loved (that was a particularly low year). And also, giving up your time to people less fortunate and in great need. I’ve spent many nights in my years of street outreach, with the homeless, and let me tell you, seeing the misery they’re in will wake you up to just how lucky you are to even come home to a warm bed. I don’t think fabulous holidays just happen in many lives, I think sometimes we have to work at keeping our spirits up, and making the holiday good for others. Usually, when I stop worrying about how happy I’ll be, and just concentrate on making others happy, I wind up happier myself. (Some of my Christmas dreams and wishes have been slow in coming, or Santa lost my list along the way, but I have so many things/people to be grateful for that in the end I feel blessed anyway). Maybe the answer to better holidays is to try to avoid the things that stress you most, if possible, and depress you, and make sure you do some of the things that are really meaningful to you and make you happy, whatever that is. I have spent Christmases in poverty (in my early writing years) and in wealth, and although it’s a great feeling to be able to buy somebody a great gift you know they want, the year that I bought items and furniture in junk stores and refinished them for people I loved was one of my best years. I worked so hard on gifts I hoped they’d love. (As for what I get, it’s often weird. People view me as having ‘so much’ or ‘everything’ that it intimidates them, so they give me nothing, or a candle—-or a fruit cake!!! (I accept chocolate all year round), what they don’t realize is how touched I am by small thoughtful gifts, however small. And there is always one gift every year, which touches my heart, and shows that someone cares and knows me well. Maybe that’s all that really matters, showing the people you care about that you’re thinking about them and care about them. Even a phone call to a beloved friend can show them that at the right time.) Anyway, try and plan a little so that the hard parts of Christmas don’t hit you quite so hard. And I’ll try to do the same!!! And if your family drives you crazy, try to shield yourself as best you can, so they don’t ruin the holiday for you, and remember that you only have to put up with them for a day or two. I never went home to my parents for the holidays after I was married, but if I had, it would have been miserable for me. (And at some point, you have to give up torturing yourself, even for a good cause, and do what’s right and good for you. You have a right to spend the holidays with who you want to be with, not people who are unkind to you, if that’s the case, and make you feel worse). Try to shelve the old bad memories, and just focus on today. You can get through today. One day at a time, as they say.
I hope that your holidays will be fantastic. And for those of you who have the kind of Christmas we see on a Christmas card, you don’t need my help, support, or advice. But for those of you for whom the holidays are challenging, I will keep you in my thoughts. Most people don’t have such an easy time with the holidays, even though we think they do. Life is not a greeting card; sometimes it’s all too real!!!
Your mission (and mine) is to find something we love about these holidays, something to be grateful for, something fun to do (even if it’s watching your favorite TV show or old movie, with a bowl of popcorn you made yourself!!). Be good to yourself, no matter what Santa does, or how annoying your family might be, or how alone you feel. We are all in this together. May your holidays be blessed in ways you never expected, cherish the tiny moments, and the joys. I wish you the happiest of holidays…and I hope Santa comes through for you!!!
With much love, Danielle
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FABULOUS DANIELLE….YOU ALWAYS SAY THE RIGHT THING….OF COURSE..THE VERY BEST OF HOLIDAYS TO YOU AS WELL…JUST NEED A FEW MORE OF YOUR BOOKS TO HAVE THE COMPLETE COLLECTION…AND AS MUCH AS I LOOK WHILE ALWAYS GOING ANTIQUING..I CANNOT FIND THESE FEW…BUT ITS THE FUN OF THE HUNT….AND SOMEDAY I WILL RUN ACROSS EACH AND EVERY ONE…INCLUDING THE POEMS..(JUST FINISHING THE PASSION OF THE SEASONS)….HAPPY NEW YEAR DANIELLE….
CAROL O. IN CALIF.
Dear danielle, I wish u the best of best holidays with my deep love!!!
Love,Danait assefa,
Ethiopia
Merry Christmas Ms Steel!
Your blog is always so uplifting, you truly have such a kind heart and know how to cheer people up even complete strangers. Life has been the last couple of years unkind to you with the loss of family but you continue to cope with a dignity that I can only wish to emulate. You really are an inspiration and BTW I think anyone would have to be crazy,mad just completely nuts to want to pass-up spending anytime with you at Christmas!
Happy Holidays!
merry christmas Danielle…i wish you happiness,in every sense of the word this holiday season…be happy. God bless.
You always have the perfect words whether in the books I love to read or your blog… Many blessings and Happy Holidays to you and your family. May your books keeping coming… They are truly inspirational to me.
Dear Ms. Danielle Steel,
Really appreciate your stories on Christmas when various people are having in various ways. I’ve felt really sorry on your Christmas when you were six years old. Seeped into my soul. Could understand your feeling especially because I know yourself through reading your novels a lot, from October 10, 2011 “His Bright Light”, “Matters of the Heart”, “Southern Lights”, H.R.H(Her Royal Highness), “Coming Out”, “Honor Thyself”, “Amazing Grace” and now “One day at a Time” – – – like 1991 when I started reading your novels I feel like reading all of them produced by you. My relatives originating from both the Wake family(major one in Japan) and the Meredith family(Hawaii, Los Angeles, Indiana and Maryland) are living in the States. Hope they’ll give me something to describe human worlds in English. Of course your novels are giving me something great for human understanding. Thanks a lot.
Regards,
Toshiaki Hida
December 22, 2011
Awww, this was another uplifting, full of understanding article. Sometimes I think it would be better to have “christmas” or whatever one celebrates this time of year, every OTHER
year!!! Somehow, it always turns out to be good, no matter how simple, but I’m still voting for every other year!! Hope you enjoy…Love, Lorraine
Dear Danielle Steel,
Life is full of ups and downs and we all handle them somehow. Life is never constant, and that is what makes it our life. Thank you for sharing stories on your Christmas, it makes it reassuring for so many out there. That it is alright for things to be unstable, even at the most important time of year.
Although I do not celebrate Christmas religiously, I would like to wish you and your family a wonderful Christmas.
Sincerely,
Noor
These are the good old days. Merry Christmas. Love Stella Ann
Hi Danielle – I thought the part about having popcorn and a good movie with friends sounds very warm and in the holiday spirit!! I love the holidays – especially Biblical stories of the middle east and the lords journey.. I also love reading your stories – god bless & may you have a wonderful holiday–mike
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